7.1.03

Just some minor ranting...

Hey! Well today wasn't the best day in the world. Well it wasn't that bad. Its just that...well...ok I'm not going to get into things too much because well this is the internet and who knows who will read it. But Seth's mom isn't too into Seth having a girlfriend (for various reasons I'm sure, and some unknown by me.) But the problem is, although she likes me as in Melissa, she doesn't particularly care for Seth's girlfriend. (Which is me--I guess that doesn't make a whole lot of sense does it?) Oh well. But yea I think I have caused a LOT of problems between Seth and his mom. He says its not my fault, and I know its not entirely but it is in the fact that I'm the reason there are even these problems to start with. I guess I just doubt sometimes if I'm even worth all the trouble that Seth has to go through. But he says it is, and that he loves me, and I do believe him, I still can't help feeling kind of guilty. I did write his mom a note saying I was sorry (I know a note is kind of dumb, but I don't know if I'll have a chance to actually talk to her in the near future.) I hope it helps. I just wish I could make things work. I really want her "approval" of not just me myself but of "us". *sigh* But I guess things will work out in the end. They have too, I know that I love him and I'm not going to give up ;) I guess all couples have their struggles...whether it be disagreements between themselves, distance, etc. I guess this is just a struggle we'll have to get through. I know its worth it though. And It will probably make us stronger in the end... I'm just impatient and whiney and want things to be right IMMEDIATELY ;). Anywho, I just wanted to get that off my chest, not that anyone is actually reading it or caring! ;) hehe. But thats ok.

Oh and the new layout- Its just for this week...I saved my Under the Sea one and am putting it back up later. I just thought I'd give my diary a twist for the holiday ;) Ok I've rambled enough now, I'm gonna go!... TTFN!

~Melissa

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