12.30.04

End of the year rant...

When it comes to Seth's mom it seems like it's always one step forward, then two steps back. Everytime I think "Wow things are starting to get better, maybe she's finally accepting us" etc., then something happens to set me back to page 1.

I talked to Seth this morning, he was kind of upset, his mom went off on him last night. Some of the things he talked about made me mad. I can't believe how selfish she can be, and just how... just how much she lives in her own little world. I don't know what kind of unrealistic expectations she actually has, but I'll tell you she is really darn lucky to have a son like Seth, who will listen to her and take all that crap... cause most people, myself included, probably wouldn't. He knows something has to change, and he's going to talk to her. I just hope she can see what she's doing is wrong, and is seriously hurting her relationship with Seth. She apoligized to Seth this morning, but "I'm sorry" doesn't really mean much since it's not followed by an effort to change or improve. It just kills me how hard it is on him, and how there's not much I can do about it. I just hope things get better for him...

He's supposed to call me this evening. He didn't come to the clogging show tonight because "it's the last night that Aliel and Ryan and everyone will be home", so she wanted him to stay home. Here's a novel idea...how about the FAMILY comes to watch Seth dance and show some support for him doing something he loves for a change? Grr... well I really hope he calls tonight, I know he will if he can, but I just want to talk to him and hopefully he's doing ok.

I know I rant about Seth's mom a whole lot... but all I want is for Seth to have a good relationship with her and for her to be accepting of me, and us as a couple. I want her to acknowledge that we are serious, and this isn't just some superficial high school fling. (We've been together for 2 years...that should be a clue...) And most of all, when Seth and I get engaged, I want her to be happy... when we get married, I want her to be happy... and I do NOT want to be one of these people who dispises their mother-in-law and has unpleasent family gatherings because they can't get along. I want a good relationship with her. I guess it's too much to ask for though...because I have been trying SO hard from day one to get there and well I haven't always gotten the impression of much of an effort on her side. :S

Ok I'm done complaining...it's not like it's helping anyway!!!

I may not have to work tomorrow, I'm supposed to call at noon and see if they need me, depending on how many kids are there. I don't think many will be, since most people have off work for New Years Eve.

I'm not doing a whole lot for New Years. I'm hoping that tomorrow night Seth will be able to come over here. I don't know now though if he'll be able to because of all that stuff with his mom. I really hope to see him though, and get my midnight kiss! ;)

Alright well this has been one waste of an entry... Sorry for the ranting... I'm gonna go now so, TTFN!

~Melissa

PS: Seth if you're reading this, I'm sorry for my complaining, because I'm still the luckiest gir1 in the whole world. I love you with all my heart and I will forever, no matter what! <3

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